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A Life's Morning
by
George Gissing
CONTENTS
I AN UNDERGRADUATE AT LEISURE II BEATRICE REDWING III LYRICAL IV A CONFLICT OF OPINIONS V THE SHADOW OF HOME VI A VISITOR BY EXPRESS VII ON THE LEVELS VIII A STERNER WOOING IX CIRCUMSTANCE X AT THE SWORD'S POINT XI EMILY'S DECISION XII THE FINAL INTERVIEW XIII THE CUTTING OF THE KNOT XIV NEWS AND COMMENTS XV MRS. BAXENDALE'S QUESTS XVI RENUNCIATION XVII THEIR SEVERAL WAYS XVIII A COMPACT XIX THE COMPLETION OF MISCHANCE XX WILFRID THE LEGISLATOR XXI DANGEROUS RELICS XXII HER PATH IN THE SHADOW XXIII HER PATH IN THE LIGHT XXIV THE UNEXPECTED XXV A FAMILY CONCLAVE XXVI MID-DAY
CHAPTER I
AN UNDERGRADUATE AT LEISURE
Wilfrid Athel went down invalided a few days after the beginning of Trinity term. The event was not unanticipated. At Christmas it had been clear enough that he was overtaxing himself; his father remarked on the fact with anxiety, and urged moderation, his own peculiar virtue. Wilfrid, whose battle with circumstances was all before him, declined to believe that the body was anything but the very humble servant of the will. So the body took its revenge.
He had been delicate in childhood, and the stage of hardy naturalism which interposes itself between tender juvenility and the birth of self-consciousness did not in his case last long enough to establish his frame in the vigour to which it was tending. There was nothing sickly about him; it was only an excess of nervous vitality that would not allow body to keep pace with mind. He was a boy to be, intellectually, held in leash, said the doctors. But that was easier said than done. What system of sedatives could one apply to a youngster whose imagination wrought him to a fever during a simple walk by the seashore, who if books were forcibly withheld consoled himself with the composition of five-act tragedies, interspersed with lyrics to which he supplied original strains? Mr. Athel conceived a theory that such exuberance of emotionality might be counterbalanced by studies of a strictly positive nature; a tutor was engaged to ground young Wilfrid in mathematics and the physical sciences. The result was that the tutor's enthusiasm for these pursuits communicated itself after a brief repugnance to the versatile pupil; instincts of mastery became as vivid in the study of Euclid and the chemical elements as formerly in the humaner paths of learning; the plan had failed. In the upshot Wilfrid was sent to school; if that did not develop the animal in him, nothing would.
He was not quite three-and-twenty when the break-down removed him from Oxford. Going to Balliol with a scholarship, he had from the first been marked for great things, at all events by the measure of the schools. Removal from the system of home education had in truth seemed to answer in some degree the ends aimed at; the lad took his fair share of cricket and football, and kept clear of nervous crises. At the same time he made extraordinary progress with his books. He acquired with extreme facility, and his ambition never allowed him to find content in a second place; conquest became
Table of contents (by pages)
- 1: A Life's Morning by George Gissing
- 2: Wilfrid was an only son and an only child
- 3: Athel demanded by way of recompense
- 4: Rossall glided into the room behind him
- 5: Go over to Hilstead and lunch there
- 6: He put Oberon at a leap or two
- 7: But Wilfrid begged her not to move
- 8: Wilfrid put the question now with a smile
- 9: 'You could not have been brainless
- 10: I have such an appetite for knowledge
- 11: Athel regarded her for several moments
- 12: 'My time in the holidays will be very limited
- 13: It is surely needless to say that I have no such thought
- 14: Athel give you some of that pate
- 15: Cresset preaching the doctrine
- 16: 'But you have relatives in Dunfield
- 17: Celia Dawlish was with us a fortnight ago
- 18: He won for his wife a certain Miss Baxendale
- 19: Redwing was an invalid thenceforth
- 20: Athel drove his sister and the children
- 21: Wilfrid necessarily followed her
- 22: Of humanising ruffians by the influence of music
- 23: Napoleon the Great was a curse to mankind
- 24: That eclecticism of which she spoke to Wilfrid Athel
- 25: Rossall said in one of her earliest conversations with Emily
- 26: Rossall would have deemed becoming
- 27: Athel was not forgetful of his own course in that matter
- 28: To remind herself that such untruth was common to all lives
- 29: Rossall sitting in the dusk by the open French windows
- 30: Beatrice averted her eyes quickly
- 31: Rossall wished to refer to the 'Spectator
- 32: They were sighed rather than spoken
- 33: To Wilfrid she used no form of words
- 34: The weariness of excitement perturbed her joy
- 35: Emily stood with a shock of life at the gates of her heart
- 36: But Emily could only speak through silence
- 37: Rossall was genuinely gracious
- 38: Athel had two ways of expressing displeasure
- 39: Athel still drummed on the book
- 40: Athel smiled in spite of himself
- 41: Athel cast at his son had in it something of pride
- 42: Athel took another turn on the lawn
- 43: Rossall raised her eyebrows a little
- 44: Was Banbrigg a delectable abode
- 45: It would be hard to find solace in Banbrigg
- 46: Each morning going into Dunfield
- 47: The Baxendales were well to do people
- 48: The misery of her parents' home haunted her
- 49: The charwoman was in the house
- 50: Hood came into the room shortly
- 51: He alone represented the firm of Dagworthy and Son
- 52: What creatures are these coming along the lane
- 53: ''Don't you think you ought to go to Cleethorpes
- 54: Emily had abandoned discussion on these points
- 55: At which Dagworthy was present
- 56: Dagworthy conducted them into the house
- 57: Dagworthy offered no opposition
- 58: Young Dagworthy won't seem of much account to her
- 59: To make sure that no delay might disappoint Wilfrid
- 60: There had been no train to Pendal at the right time
- 61: They call her a witch in the stories
- 62: 'Shall our marriage take place here
- 63: Wilfrid have you made little of your father's opposition
- 64: 'Emily hesitated before speaking again
- 65: Overcome with an intolerable suspicion
- 66: 'I must go as far as Pendal station
- 67: As for the Cartwright girls well
- 68: The shelves exhibited bottles and jars
- 69: And that makes protoxide of nitrogen and water
- 70: Who had just begun practice in Dunfield
- 71: Cartwright and four of the girls managed a week at Ilkley
- 72: The tone of Dunfield society was not high
- 73: Dagworthy had dogs on exhibition at the show
- 74: One lesson in the garden and the next at Banbrigg
- 75: With the members of the Cartwright family
- 76: Tichborne was very probably a source of evil
- 77: Emily sat beneath the infliction
- 78: And that carried her thoughts to Wilfrid
- 79: Hood reflected on this exclusive attachment in Emily
- 80: But here at length was a letter from Wilfrid
- 81: Various reasons led to his widow's quitting Hebsworth
- 82: Dagworthy conceived that his end was gained
- 83: And to be well aware what Dunfield was saying about him
- 84: And Dagworthy could observe them closely
- 85: At the sight of Dagworthy the smile vanished instantly
- 86: Dagworthy raised his eyes slowly from her feet to her face
- 87: Dagworthy 'Emily tried to break the intolerable silence
- 88: Emily stood with her head bowed in sadness
- 89: When it was certain that Dagworthy had left the garden
- 90: Was Dagworthy capable of taking revenge upon her father
- 91: Dagworthy was not looking himself
- 92: You or Hood must go to Hebsworth
- 93: These he would eat on the way to Hebsworth
- 94: To go to Dagworthy with sovereigns in his hand
- 95: If Cheeseman had possessed literary skill
- 96: But a beefsteak pudding to start with
- 97: Never you fear but I'll repay it
- 98: I shouldn't like to suggest a pint
- 99: As far as Dagworthy was concerned
- 100: When Emily endeavoured to soothe her
- 101: 'I had to go to Hebsworth to day
- 102: Emily took the hand and kissed it
- 103: Dunfield was no home for Emily
- 104: And walked off quickly in the direction of Dunfield
- 105: Keeping at some distance behind Emily
- 106: Her fear of him would not allow Emily to feel deep distress
- 107: ' She heard those words exactly as they were spoken
- 108: I know very well yen always like the baked
- 109: ' Cheeseman came in exclaiming
- 110: It was too much like a piece of dishonesty
- 111: Smiling at Emily rather uneasily
- 112: It's my belief he's borrowed it himself
- 113: Emily kept her eyes upon the window
- 114: 'Here are Jessie and Geraldine
- 115: That Cheeseman has been taking him to a public house
- 116: Hypocrisy from her to him at this moment hypocrisy
- 117: Dagworthy had it in his power to ruin her father
- 118: His disgrace would involve her
- 119: For Emily no external dogma existed
- 120: Neither Hood nor his daughter went to church
- 121: Long since quarried and left unused
- 122: ' Emily gave him a direct look
- 123: That I'm doing a mean and a vile thing there
- 124: You wouldn't be frightened into yielding
- 125: But hastened still and escaped
- 126: I would it had been otherwise with Dagworthy
- 127: Emily hid her face in the pillow and moaned
- 128: Was showing itself strongly in Dagworthy
- 129: ' Dagworthy spoke almost cheerfully
- 130: Would she suffer thus for Wilfrid
- 131: Hood had abandoned her useless protests
- 132: But how is the gratitude going to be shown
- 133: You were coming from the Heath
- 134: At a second bark Dagworthy looked down
- 135: And behaved as if nothing unusual had happened
- 136: Rossall raised her eyebrows resignedly
- 137: Rossall overruled the suggestion
- 138: Even if they put on cynicism for show
- 139: Rossall took her brother aside
- 140: When at length he stepped out at Dunfield
- 141: ' Wilfrid spoke half to himself
- 142: ''The Baxendales have shown much kindness
- 143: An influence which his life had lacked
- 144: That I have an evil reputation in Dunfield
- 145: Baxendale again examining his face
- 146: I shall stay in Dunfield till I am able to see her
- 147: Liberal and Conservative suggest ideas
- 148: Baxendale took him with her in the brougham
- 149: And Baxendale was in truth anything but vulgar
- 150: Baxendale had read not a little
- 151: Baxendale sat by herself musing
- 152: Baxendale sat reading not long after breakfast
- 153: Baxendale were talking together
- 154: Baxendale should visit the doctor
- 155: Baxendale perceived this in time
- 156: But the utterance of her name caused Emily to raise her lids
- 157: She strove to dwell upon nothing could touch her father now
- 158: Athel had a letter from London this morning
- 159: Baxendale allowed one day to intervene
- 160: And kept the same position as Wilfrid entered
- 161: Wilfrid rose and gazed at her in dread
- 162: And Wilfrid in very deed was gone
- 163: The pain of such renunciation was twofold
- 164: The gate was opened by Jessie Cartwright
- 165: 'You found Emily looking sadly
- 166: Baxendale the suspicion which occupied him
- 167: Baxendale speeded it on its way
- 168: Wilfrid had not hit upon the idea
- 169: Wilfrid was not eminently patient
- 170: Baxendale wonder at his unexpected feebleness
- 171: Baxendale with good natured reproof
- 172: And was irritated if Emily failed in attention
- 173: At one dinner at the Baxendales' house Dagworthy was present
- 174: Dagworthy never inquired about the boy's health
- 175: 'I suppose you've got your feet wet
- 176: ''You may pry as much as you like
- 177: ' Dagworthy asked with surprise
- 178: 'Will you help me on with my cloak
- 179: Baxendale drove her to the door
- 180: Baxendale again came to Banbrigg
- 181: She walked to Pendal and took train for Dunfield
- 182: Found Dagworthy making purchases
- 183: At eleven next morning he went again to Banbrigg
- 184: Dagworthy by chance in a draper's shop
- 185: Baxendale satisfactory news of Dagworthy
- 186: Baxendale still represents Dunfield
- 187: Wilfrid was very gracious to them both
- 188: Baxendale smiled at the confession
- 189: Wilfrid regained the command of his mind
- 190: Wilfrid had none of the vulgarest vanity
- 191: If Wilfrid found a sphere for the display of his talents
- 192: Baxendale merely shook her head
- 193: And Beatrice had abundance of room to herself
- 194: And public care 'quoted Wilfrid
- 195: Beatrice tormented herself to explain this
- 196: Birks was disposed to treat Emily with little seriousness
- 197: For once Wilfrid had been overcome
- 198: But Wilfrid had refused to accept that declaration
- 199: And let Wilfrid draw off her gloves
- 200: Beatrice stretched her hand towards it
- 201: Wilfrid at tempted to pursue the jest
- 202: 'He let her throw the mantle over her shoulders
- 203: Beatrice was gazing at him in resentful wonder
- 204: Wilfrid restored the letters to their place in the drawer
- 205: Wilfrid was due for a sitting this Wednesday morning
- 206: Wilfrid saw only the soul in her gaze at him
- 207: But Wilfrid was by this time at battle with himself
- 208: Wilfrid glanced at her frequently
- 209: Emily threw back one startled glance
- 210: At first she had found Wilfrid a good deal altered
- 211: Of her anguish had come inspiration
- 212: Wilfrid would not refuse to come and see her at the last
- 213: Emily was sure to be free on Saturday afternoon
- 214: Suppose he did again meet Emily
- 215: Wilfrid knew at length what he had done
- 216: Wilfrid checked her faint words with his lips
- 217: Wilfrid looked into her face anxiously
- 218: Athel had dined with his sister
- 219: How would Beatrice bear the revelation
- 220: Evidently Wilfrid had no outbreak of resentment to fear
- 221: Wilfrid found himself wandering by the river
- 222: Emily had recounted every circumstance of her father's death
- 223: ' Wilfrid replied under his breath
- 224: It was well to have told Wilfrid all her secrets
- 225: But I think you remember that I was a friend of the Athels
- 226: Athel to tell you something about that
- 227: Baxendale had quite ceased to smile
- 228: Baxendale was again looking at her with grave
- 229: Baxendale could not accept this as positive assurance
- 230: Baxendale regarded him observantly
- 231: Athel was standing with his hands clasped behind him
- 232: Birks rose quickly and met her
- 233: Baxendale came near and said gently 'Dear
- 234: Athel on their return from the Continent
- 235: Wilfrid was awed by his blessedness
- 236: ' Wilfrid returned at the same moment
