OF HUMAN BONDAGE
BY
W. SOMERSET MAUGHAM
I
The day broke gray and dull. The clouds hung heavily, and there was a rawness in the air that suggested snow. A woman servant came into a room in which a child was sleeping and drew the curtains. She glanced mechanically at the house opposite, a stucco house with a portico, and went to the child's bed.
"Wake up, Philip," she said.
She pulled down the bed-clothes, took him in her arms, and carried him downstairs. He was only half awake.
"Your mother wants you," she said.
She opened the door of a room on the floor below and took the child over to a bed in which a woman was lying. It was his mother. She stretched out her arms, and the child nestled by her side. He did not ask why he had been awakened. The woman kissed his eyes, and with thin, small hands felt the warm body through his white flannel nightgown. She pressed him closer to herself.
"Are you sleepy, darling?" she said.
Her voice was so weak that it seemed to come already from a great distance. The child did not answer, but smiled comfortably. He was very happy in the large, warm bed, with those soft arms about him. He tried to make himself smaller still as he cuddled up against his mother, and he kissed her sleepily. In a moment he closed his eyes and was fast asleep. The doctor came forwards and stood by the bed-side.
"Oh, don't take him away yet," she moaned.
The doctor, without answering, looked at her gravely. Knowing she would not be allowed to keep the child much longer, the woman kissed him again; and she passed her hand down his body till she came to his feet; she held the right foot in her hand and felt the five small toes; and then slowly passed her hand over the left one. She gave a sob.
"What's the matter?" said the doctor. "You're tired."
She shook her head, unable to speak, and the tears rolled down her cheeks. The doctor bent down.
"Let me take him."
She was too weak to resist his wish, and she gave the child up. The doctor handed him back to his nurse.
"You'd better put him back in his own bed."
"Very well, sir." The little boy, still sleeping, was taken away. His mother sobbed now broken-heartedly.
"What will happen to him, poor child?"
The monthly nurse tried to quiet her, and presently, from exhaustion, the crying ceased. The doctor walked to a table on the other side of the room, upon which, under a towel, lay the body of a still-born child. He lifted the towel and looked. He was hidden from the bed by a screen, but the woman guessed what he was doing.
"Was it a girl or a boy?" she whispered to the nurse.
"Another boy."
The woman did not answer. In a moment the child's nurse came back. She approached the bed.
"Master Philip never woke up," she said. There was a pause. Then the doctor felt his patient's pulse once more.
"I don't think there's anything I can do just now," he said. "I'll call again after breakfast."
"I'll show you out, sir," said the child's nurse.
Table of contents (by pages)
- 1: Of Human Bondage by W. Somerset Maugham
- 2: Miss Watkin said she'd take him
- 3: Henrietta Watkin was a stout woman
- 4: Carey looked at them helplessly
- 5: Emma took far too much upon herself
- 6: Blackstable was sixty miles from London
- 7: Carey on Sunday afternoons for his nap
- 8: Poor Philip was practically penniless
- 9: Carey looked at Philip for an instant
- 10: Blackstable was a fishing village
- 11: Wilson was the richest man in Blackstable
- 12: Carey rang the bell for prayers
- 13: Carey brought the communion plate out of the safe
- 14: Carey passed the information on
- 15: But Josiah Graves said they were popish
- 16: Carey looked at Philip surreptitiously now and then
- 17: And we'll sing the hymns at the harmonium
- 18: Carey looked at her in perplexity
- 19: Carey quickly found two which described Palestine
- 20: When they got out of the train at Tercanbury
- 21: The headmaster bellowed cheerily
- 22: He did not know why Venning kicked him
- 23: Made up the furniture of each cubicle
- 24: Philip blushed self consciously
- 25: And he looked into two or three of the cubicles
- 26: Singer had given up his nibs too
- 27: He looked from Singer to Philip
- 28: Luard looked at Philip with dismay
- 29: It's not about the pen holder I care
- 30: Carey looked up over his spectacles
- 31: And then he sat down to breakfast
- 32: Philip accepted the explanation
- 33: Who had been headmaster for the quarter of a century
- 34: Tom Perkins continued to triumph
- 35: Perkins had talked incessantly
- 36: Perkins turned in that untidy head of his
- 37: Perkins never gave us any construing to do
- 38: I saw they'd got to the agrarian laws of Caius Gracchus
- 39: Perkins was seated at his table
- 40: Perkins was showing him a picture of Salamis
- 41: And his voracious appetite to tapeworms
- 42: The headmaster hesitated a moment
- 43: And as he limped up the chancel
- 44: They complained that he was conceited
- 45: He shook hands with Philip enthusiastically
- 46: One of the stricken was Philip
- 47: Philip stopped in embarrassment
- 48: Mellor said Why didn't you kick him
- 49: Carey glanced at it indifferently
- 50: Perkins should trouble with him
- 51: Whistling drearily through the leafless trees
- 52: Do you think there's any use in my staying on at Tercanbury
- 53: May I go to Blackstable this afternoon
- 54: I asked Perkins and he refused
- 55: Perkins noticed it and broke into a little laugh
- 56: Philip looked at the masters in their gowns
- 57: Perkins whether he went or stayed
- 58: Philip arrived in Heidelberg one morning in May
- 59: Philip walked by the side of Anna and Fraulein Hedwig
- 60: And their pleasant odour caused Philip a keen delight
- 61: Wharton gave a contemptuous shrug of the shoulders
- 62: The green of the trees in the Anlage was violent and crude
- 63: But before he could go on Fraulein Hedwig said Ach
- 64: He was a charlatan but a successful charlatan
- 65: Monsieur Ducroz charged eighteen pence an hour
- 66: Monsieur Ducroz appeared again five or six days later
- 67: Fraulein Hedwig sang several songs
- 68: And Hayward repeated it to Philip
- 69: Hayward felt that life was full of ugliness
- 70: Who did not understand American humour
- 71: So innocent in appearance that Hayward
- 72: He gave Philip Newman's Apologia to read
- 73: And in England dissenters aren't gentlemen
- 74: When Philip and Hayward got up to go
- 75: For he knew of course that the Lutherans
- 76: It was a matter of environment and example
- 77: Were working in him unconsciously
- 78: And Hayward began to think of going South
- 79: In which according to Hayward the Fraulein Trude lived
- 80: The Frau Professor tried obstinacy
- 81: The Frau Professor began to cry
- 82: Fraulein Cacilie is there every evening
- 83: Herr Sung smiled in the Frau Professor's eyes
- 84: Hayward had often suggested excursions
- 85: She reminded him of Miss Wilkinson
- 86: Miss Wilkinson was very different
- 87: Hayward had talked of Maupassant
- 88: She often went with Madame Foyot
- 89: They're relations of Madame Foyot
- 90: But Miss Wilkinson was English and unmarried
- 91: One day Miss Wilkinson gave Philip La Vie de Boheme
- 92: The Vicar of Blackstable wrote to ask Mr
- 93: Miss Wilkinson was practically French
- 94: He would have pressed his lips on her nuque
- 95: Have you been flirting with me
- 96: Miss Wilkinson looked at him nervously
- 97: And this time Miss Wilkinson did not think of earwigs
- 98: If Miss Wilkinson wants anything
- 99: She wore a camisole of white calico with short arms
- 100: He thought he would write to Hayward
- 101: Miss Wilkinson was standing in front of him
- 102: Apparently Miss Wilkinson overheard him
- 103: Carey pointed to the sideboard
- 104: And read together Romeo and Juliet
- 105: He held out his hand to Philip
- 106: And here they found Watson sitting back in a chair
- 107: Good sportsman did Philip hunt
- 108: Asked him to spend a Sunday at Hampstead
- 109: That reminded him of Miss Wilkinson
- 110: Meanwhile the Christmas holidays approached
- 111: Thompson said when Philip came to the office late
- 112: It was all very well for Hayward to talk of taking risks
- 113: It was a vulgar Paris that he showed Philip
- 114: Carter's very dissatisfied with you
- 115: Carey turned the matter over in her mind incessantly
- 116: Nixon answered as follows Dear Mrs
- 117: You don't think it's selfish of me
- 118: Made his way into the boulevard and walked towards the light
- 119: Otter followed his wandering eye
- 120: Philip placed an easel where she indicated
- 121: Clutton will hold his tongue for a moment
- 122: Philip listened with all his ears
- 123: XLI Philip walked down the Boulevard du Montparnasse
- 124: They got up and walked to the studio
- 125: Flanagan was there again he was an American
- 126: Lawson took no notice of the interruption
- 127: I'd rather go and see Cronshaw and keep sober
- 128: But he knew enough to tell that Cronshaw
- 129: And Cronshaw held it up to the light
- 130: Cronshaw filled his glass again
- 131: He went round from easel to easel
- 132: Otter because she's the massiere
- 133: Or does she expect to earn money by it
- 134: I know the Luxembourg rather well
- 135: Then she talked of Ruth Chalice
- 136: A few steps brought them to a smaller restaurant
- 137: But fortunately at that moment the omelette came
- 138: With Lawson on the other hand Philip soon grew intimate
- 139: He was afraid that Miss Wilkinson had suffered a good deal
- 140: Cronshaw never came to Gravier's
- 141: He did not realise that little that Cronshaw said was new
- 142: Cronshaw looked at him meditatively and filled his glass
- 143: Cronshaw in his shabby great coat
- 144: And you will look upon them more charitably
- 145: They passed by Cronshaw and Philip
- 146: Go and look at those Persian carpets
- 147: Philip could not help laughing
- 148: He did not like anyone to mention the deformity
- 149: Philip had been eager to see Hayward again
- 150: Which Cronshaw had volunteered to make
- 151: They asked Clutton to go with them
- 152: Then her thoughts flung back to Ruth Chalice
- 153: Lawson painted very low in tone
- 154: Miss Chalice and Lawson seemed to him now somehow different
- 155: Lawson was painting a portrait of Miss Chalice
- 156: Clutton had only just come back to Paris
- 157: Clutton shrugged his shoulders
- 158: But Miguel bad no patience with the grandeur of his country
- 159: The naive obscenity c'est la vie
- 160: And then they fetched a locksmith
- 161: Albert Price knew no French and Philip had to do everything
- 162: He made up his mind to go and see Flanagan
- 163: Bullier was not the resort of fashion
- 164: Flanagan was sending two pictures
- 165: Clutton shrugged his shoulders
- 166: But Clutton began to talk again
- 167: He's always behaving like a perfect cad
- 168: The studio seemed strange without her
- 169: Philip told him where his studio was
- 170: You will never be anything but mediocre
- 171: LII Next day Philip arrived at Blackstable
- 172: Churchwarden and manager of the bank
- 173: Lawson and Clutton with their quarrels
- 174: He reproached Philip for laziness
- 175: I think your flippancy is quite inane
- 176: A conversation with Cronshaw had stuck in his memory
- 177: And conscience the first two could be met by guile
- 178: Philip found that his first lecture was in anatomy
- 179: Said the young man who was dissecting with Philip
- 180: He discovered that his companion was called Dunsford
- 181: He thought his muffin tasted of it too
- 182: Lived a fifth year man called Griffiths
- 183: One day Dunsford told him her name was Mildred
- 184: And Dunsford soon found another young woman to flirt with
- 185: All the waitresses were dressed alike
- 186: Dunsford had jolly curling hair
- 187: He detested Mildred now with all his heart
- 188: I thought of the Adelphi Restaurant
- 189: Philip was a very cultured young man
- 190: And the greenish pallor of her skin
- 191: And his first thought was of Mildred
- 192: Philip knew that she was not speaking the truth
- 193: Philip bought tickets for Saturday night
- 194: Philip knew that he was flirting with Mildred
- 195: You know I'm awfully fond of you
- 196: She had a vulgar shrewdness which revolted him
- 197: He pretended to listen to what Dunsford was talking about
- 198: But Philip was obstinately casual
- 199: You haven't begged my pardon yet
- 200: But Mildred didn't like being laughed at
- 201: But he knew that Mildred wanted entertainment
- 202: So he went down to Herne Hill in the morning
- 203: He knew that Mildred was a snob
- 204: I saw you hanging about Victoria
- 205: Philip went to the Tivoli and saw Mildred with her companion
- 206: Mildred greatly desired to go to Paris
- 207: Would give Mildred three whole days holiday
- 208: I can't help noticing those furs
- 209: But in the examination room Philip was seized with panic
- 210: Let me order the dinner tonight
- 211: He remembered that she had always liked Miller
- 212: Philip tried to reason with himself
- 213: But he filled his glass with Chianti
- 214: Philip turned to Hayward with shining eyes
- 215: Hayward thought that Philip choked a sob
- 216: And Lawson was not far from it
- 217: Philip was hurt because Lawson would not see the pity of it
- 218: He could not help comparing her with Mildred
- 219: And her pity expressed itself instinctively in tenderness
- 220: Philip did not love her at all
- 221: I suppose you'll go down to your uncle's at Blackstable
- 222: Philip knew Hayward very well by now
- 223: But Hayward could still talk delightfully about books
- 224: Macalister reminded him of the Categorical Imperative
- 225: But I believe it is only an illusion
- 226: Griffiths put his hand on Philip's forehead
- 227: Norah and Griffiths nursed him between them
- 228: His landlady opened the door for him
- 229: Last Monday week he went up to Birmingham
- 230: You'd better go and see a solicitor
- 231: Philip felt a sudden pang of jealousy and anguish
- 232: She had a new thoughtfulness which delighted Philip
- 233: But Mildred had told him various stories of Emil's meanness
- 234: But he had nothing to offer Norah any more
- 235: And Mildred was only grateful for his help
- 236: Mildred saw the rooms in the morning
- 237: What are you doing tomorrow then
- 238: What would you like to do tomorrow
- 239: That was the name under which Norah wrote
- 240: Griffiths read it and looked at Philip with twinkling eyes
- 241: So I've come here to apologise again
- 242: Norah did not answer for a long time
- 243: While Mildred lay on the sofa reading novels
- 244: And Mildred saw him once a week
- 245: Philip talked endlessly of the things they would do
- 246: Mildred was not unkind to her baby
- 247: As the train started he kissed Mildred
- 248: She had made friends in Brighton
- 249: Griffiths had nursed him through an illness
- 250: Mildred liked the crowd and the band
- 251: Griffiths greeted them with a smile
- 252: Presently Griffiths said I say
- 253: And Griffiths seemed to be considering
- 254: Whether Mildred and Griffiths were in love with one another
- 255: When they reached the house in which Mildred was lodging
- 256: She did not speak of Griffiths
- 257: Philip was silent for a moment
- 258: It was Mildred who broke the silence
- 259: When are you seeing Griffiths again
- 260: But he's pawned everything already
- 261: And Philip took it off for her
- 262: For they were engrossed in Griffiths
- 263: He knew she wanted to speak of Griffiths
- 264: With Griffiths out of the way he could get Mildred back
- 265: He dared not hope that Griffiths had gone away already
- 266: And he thought of Griffiths and Mildred going to Oxford
- 267: Ascribing to Griffiths this new disappointment
- 268: He despised Griffiths for his apologies
- 269: Beyond the garden and the vicarage field
- 270: Because he had not attracted Mildred sexually
- 271: He wondered what had happened to Miguel
- 272: And Lawson looked at him quizzically
- 273: Kingsford took no particular notice of him
- 274: It's awfully jolly to be sitting in this room again
- 275: Have you got your divorce then
- 276: He saw Griffiths once in the distance
- 277: Ramsden thought Philip hard and cold
- 278: And he was quite determined not to let Mildred bother him
- 279: Tyrell looked at these with suspicion
- 280: Tyrell discoursed glibly on the case
- 281: Tyrell and his house physician got through them quickly
- 282: There ain't no light jobs in my business
- 283: I ran against Flanagan the other day
- 284: Cronshaw was evidently very ill
- 285: For a moment Cronshaw did not answer
- 286: Cronshaw began to grow interested
- 287: Philip asked her if Cronshaw was in
- 288: They settled that Philip should fetch Cronshaw next day
- 289: But Cronshaw was too restless to stay in
- 290: I suppose you've got talipes equinus
- 291: And then Cronshaw would complain of him bitterly
- 292: Tyrell made one or two suggestions
- 293: Philip remembered what Cronshaw had said
- 294: Philip thought of Cronshaw young
- 295: Writing poetry Cronshaw became a picturesque figure
- 296: He was suffering from a sharp attack of jaundice
- 297: Philip looked curiously at Thorpe Athelny
- 298: Thorpe Athelny was a good talker
- 299: Athelny will 'ave his little joke
- 300: Athelny said you was very kind to him in the 'orspital
- 301: And Athelny lifted the pewter tankard to his lips
- 302: Athelny attacked his with gusto
- 303: Athelny smoked cigarettes of Havana tobacco
- 304: The names which Athelny mentioned
- 305: Athelny was describing eagerly
- 306: El Greco was the painter of the soul
- 307: Athelny spoke of the mystical writers of Spain
- 308: Sally never pays any attention to me
- 309: Athelny would desire him to accept
- 310: Athelny was very communicative
- 311: They walked a few yards and Mildred knocked three times
- 312: Again Philip found nothing to say
- 313: Philip could not bear to see her cry
- 314: Mildred looked at it critically
- 315: Mildred came into the sitting room to lay the cloth
- 316: But Mildred was subdued and exhausted
- 317: Macalister thought Hayward a poor creature
- 318: Which he left with Mildred to pay
- 319: Couldn't we take a ride on the top of a tram
- 320: Mildred slipped her arm through his
- 321: Mildred had no demonstrativeness
- 322: Macalister had a sarcastic tongue
- 323: Macalister had promised to telegraph
- 324: Athelny brought two of her children
- 325: And I could let you have a cot
- 326: The landlady called it French cooking
- 327: Alma Tadema better than Lord Leighton
- 328: It was upon this that Athelny laid stress
- 329: Then he might manage a journey to Spain
- 330: The dressers took this in turn
- 331: Mildred was not a good manager
- 332: When Mildred stopped this the poor child would cry bitterly
- 333: She had never understood Philip
- 334: It was horrible to have to be affable and subservient
- 335: She did not want to leave Philip
- 336: Philip told her that he was dining with Lawson
- 337: Philip laughed with pleasure at the recollection
- 338: We laughed because you was such a mug
- 339: Philip was a favourite with the patients
- 340: But thought Mildred had taken the baby out
- 341: And he was thankful to be rid of Mildred
- 342: When Macalister saw Philip he was pessimistic
- 343: Philip had known Hayward for eight years
- 344: Macalister looked at Philip narrowly
- 345: He thought of borrowing money from Lawson
- 346: On Sunday he was sure of a good dinner from Athelny
- 347: He walked slowly along the Chelsea Embankment
- 348: He had a cup of tea and some bread and butter
- 349: Gibbons stared at him curiously
- 350: Bought a paper to read the advertisements
- 351: Athelny got up and shook hands with him
- 352: Athelny entered and shook hands with him
- 353: The Athelnys went to bed early
- 354: Athelny left them Philip leaned back in his chair
- 355: Athelny has spoken to you about me
- 356: Sampson tripped them off his tongue
- 357: The house in Harrington Street had been a bootmaker's
- 358: Philip had already heard of the social evenings
- 359: She told Philip that her real name was not Hodges
- 360: Everyone was applauded till he gave an encore
- 361: Miss Bennett grew hotter and hotter
- 362: And there was grease on her bodice
- 363: It was evident that Athelny would
- 364: Philip did not know his exact age
- 365: Sampson took it out of the assistants
- 366: Lawson received the money silently
- 367: Lawson nodded quickly and walked away
- 368: Their simplicity was infinitely touching
- 369: Twenty years passed again and the sage
- 370: Sampson had worked up for himself and took great pride in
- 371: As good as Paquin and half the price
- 372: When Miss Antonia was announced
- 373: You'll be a buyer yourself one of these days
- 374: Philip wondered how long he would have to wait for that
- 375: He had practised at Blackstable for five and thirty years
- 376: It made Philip a little ashamed
- 377: Athelny entered into his humour
- 378: Athelny waved his beautiful white hand
- 379: And Mildred looked out suspiciously
- 380: Her voice sank to a hoarse whisper
- 381: In the bright light of the restaurant
- 382: And it would be a mistake to take something unsuitable
- 383: Carey was not well enough to write himself
- 384: Foster whether she could stand the work
- 385: The Vicar of Blackstable was dozing and Philip
- 386: Philip wanted to distract his mind
- 387: Foster said that the Vicar must not talk
- 388: Carey continued without change
- 389: Simmonds shook hands silently with Philip
- 390: A bluebottle buzzed against the windowpane
- 391: But letters which himself had written
- 392: Romantic as Philip remembered him
- 393: Others again went into the precincts to bat at the nets
- 394: The man received them with surly anger
- 395: The builder was an uncouth little fellow with a rough
- 396: And 'Erb getting up went over with Philip to the cradle
- 397: Philip had attended sixty two cases
- 398: She can't be more than sixteen
- 399: In a low voice asked Philip questions
- 400: Chandler hesitated a moment awkwardly
- 401: The Athelnys were delighted with his change of fortune
- 402: It was an occasion that thoroughly appealed to Athelny
- 403: Athelny paid no attention to Thorpe's conversation
- 404: Seeing no one except the Athelnys
- 405: Whom Philip had always found very affable
- 406: Philip preserved a sedate exterior
- 407: And then I've seen asepsis take their place
- 408: But Philip took it with good humour
- 409: Fletcher's in Ivy Lane at once
- 410: I'm offering you a partnership
- 411: Philip listened to him entranced
- 412: She was like some rural goddess
- 413: Athelny walked there with Philip
- 414: Was frying kippers over a fire of sticks
- 415: The hoppers were divided into bin companies of ten pickers
- 416: Athelny told them they had not deserved it
- 417: Athelny had gone off to gossip with one of the neighbours
- 418: Sally asked for her half pound of tea Mrs
- 419: Edward took his bathing drawers and his towel
- 420: And Philip was sitting on the grass by the side of the fire
- 421: She stopped and came to the stile
- 422: CXXI When the hops were picked
- 423: Its romance and colour and history and grandeur
- 424: He would do what he could for Sally
- 425: Deformed in body and warped in mind
- 426: His imagination was busy with Sally
- 427: Mother and Dad will be surprised
