A Woman of Genius
BY MARY AUSTIN
_Author of "The Land of Little Rain," "The Arrowmaker," "Isidro," "Christ in Italy," etc., etc._
GARDEN CITY NEW YORK DOUBLEDAY, PAGE & COMPANY 1912
_Copyright, 1912, by_ DOUBLEDAY, PAGE & CO.
_All rights reserved, including that of translation into foreign languages, including the Scandinavian_
TO LOU HENRY HOOVER AND SOME PLEASANT MEMORIES OF THE RED HOUSE IN HORNTON STREET
BOOK I
CHAPTER I
It is strange that I can never think of writing any account of my life without thinking of Pauline Mills and wondering what she will say of it. Pauline is rather given to reading the autobiographies of distinguished people--unless she has left off since I disappointed her--and finding in them new persuasions of the fundamental lightness of her scheme of things. I recall very well, how, when I was having the bad time of my life there in Chicago, she would abound in consoling instances from one then appearing in the monthly magazines; skidding over the obvious derivation of the biographist's son from the Lord Knows Who, except that it wasn't from the man to whom she was legally married, to fix on the foolish detail of the child's tempers and woolly lambs as the advertisement of that true womanliness which Pauline loves to pluck from every feminine bush.
There was also a great deal in that story about a certain other celebrity, for her relations to whom the writer was blackballed in a club of which I afterward became a member, and I think it was the things Pauline said about one of the rewards of genius being the privilege of association with such transcendent personalities on a footing which permitted one to call them by their first names in one's reminiscences, that gave me the notion of writing this book. It has struck me as humorous to a degree, that, in this sort of writing, the really important things are usually left out.
I thought then of writing the life of an accomplished woman, not so much of the accomplishment as of the woman; and I have never been able to make a start at it without thinking of Pauline Mills and that curious social warp which obligates us most to impeach the validity of a woman's opinion at the points where it is most supported by experience. From the earliest I have been rendered highly suspicious of the social estimate of women, by the general social conspiracy against her telling the truth about herself. But, in fact, I do not think Mrs. Mills will read my book. Henry will read it first at his office and tell her that he'd rather she shouldn't, for Henry has been so successfully Paulined that it is quite sufficient for any statement of life to lie outside his wife's accepted bias, to stamp it with insidious impropriety. There is at times something almost heroic in the resolution with which women like Pauline Mills defend themselves from whatever might shift the centres of their complacency.
Table of contents (by pages)
- 1: A Woman of Genius by Mary Hunter Austin
- 2: Plot is distinctly the province of fiction
- 3: A hitching rack ran quite around it and was
- 4: There was never very much to read in Taylorville at any time
- 5: I am not sure whether Ellen McGee or I invented him
- 6: Though we sometimes questioned the occasion
- 7: Effie snuggled up to me under the covers
- 8: The little Allinghams never told their mother
- 9: Get into more serious scrapes was due to Effie
- 10: I recall a throb of exasperation at his never having told me
- 11: Forester grew out of a heroic incident of his soldiering
- 12: And opening it wide upon my Uncle Alva
- 13: Which was done both nights by groups of neighbours
- 14: After all there was some excuse for Cousin Judd
- 15: Farmer looking men and their badly dressed wives
- 16: To account for a behaviour that
- 17: Nettie was not an attractive child
- 18: I am not going to Nettie Gower's any more
- 19: We naturally expected something similar from Pauline
- 20: Flora Haines was slightly scandalized
- 21: Cousin Judd would put up over night at our house
- 22: What there was between Cousin Judd and me
- 23: But we reckoned without Alfred Allingham
- 24: Who did not approve of Belle Endsleigh
- 25: There was no theatre at Taylorville
- 26: Throve like a sea anemone under the shallows of girlishness
- 27: He paid the largest portion of his salary for his board
- 28: He'd have wanted me to have mine on my birthday
- 29: As it was I decided to study elocution
- 30: The man's memory for phonic variations was extraordinary
- 31: Girls were supposed to be trusted
- 32: But Pauline Allingham and I were nice girls
- 33: Pauline showed me a little sacque which she had crocheted
- 34: For at Taylorville we called one another by our first names
- 35: They don't approve of the stage in Taylorville
- 36: It's like going at it with no thumbs at all
- 37: Pauline was pleased with herself
- 38: The Garrett bays and Helmeth with his hat off
- 39: Endsleigh after that and deliver my errand
- 40: At the gate I ran square into Tommy Bettersworth
- 41: But in fact I liked Tommy immensely
- 42: Henry Mills proposed to Pauline
- 43: So you are going to undertake to make Tommy happy
- 44: So soon as that was accomplished
- 45: But in Higgleston a funeral was your real human occasion
- 46: All my memories of my early married life are of Olivia
- 47: Whatever was done there was mostly wrong
- 48: Even Cousin Lydia drove into church the first Sunday after
- 49: Tommy had taken the baby from me
- 50: Suddenly I noticed Tommy crying
- 51: You must take her to see Modjeska
- 52: In the interval between my dream and morning
- 53: With the reputation I had acquired in Higgleston
- 54: Billed for the first of the week in Kincade
- 55: So naturally had the occasion come about
- 56: Of keeping his work innocuously amateurish
- 57: Played it as a stupendous lark
- 58: And made what Cecelia called a get away
- 59: To interpose two days' shopping between me and Higgleston
- 60: Afternoon tea was unheard of in Higgleston
- 61: Any Higgleston male would have done the same
- 62: Rathbone was our working tailor
- 63: Capitalists were always talking of hard times
- 64: If Higgleston people want that kind of a celebration
- 65: Across which Higgleston gazed at me with strange
- 66: Bettersworth Olivia Lattimore
- 67: Except Jimmy Vantine and the manager
- 68: And pleased to have him and Sarah pleased with one another
- 69: About daylight Sarah came up to inquire how my neuralgia did
- 70: I think O'Farrell would understand
- 71: There must have been two strokes in close succession
- 72: Cousin Lydia sat up with her that night and Almira Jewett
- 73: She knew Judd wouldn't have loved her
- 74: Jastrow dared put the question to Forester
- 75: The night you were engaged to Tommy
- 76: And still I went back to Higgleston
- 77: Miss Rathbone hand painted it for the Baptist bazaar
- 78: If you don't know enough to teach in Higgleston
- 79: Rathbone out at the door at last
- 80: Tillie Hemingway is coming to stay with me nights
- 81: We're building up quite a business
- 82: Affectionate letter from Tommy
- 83: Eversley appealed to me with a charming whimsicality
- 84: Whenever I went out I was aware of all Higgleston watching
- 85: Miss Rathbone came hurrying from a fitting
- 86: Has Miss Rathbone been talked about with you
- 87: At any rate Miss Rathbone failed
- 88: But to Higgleston and the clothing business
- 89: I couldn't stand a winter in Higgleston
- 90: Miss Rathbone looked at me with cold resentment
- 91: He must have gone straight to Miss Rathbone
- 92: That was as it should have been in Higgleston
- 93: I saw that she had covered the mound with flowers
- 94: To Henry Mills my engagement with Cline and Erskine
- 95: Pauline had two children by now
- 96: Pauline stopped in the process of hooking up
- 97: Sarah extenuated when Cecelia had gone
- 98: McDermott was lying on the sofa in the coma of exhaustion
- 99: Moresco would turn down Fancy Filette for anybody
- 100: It must have been Fancy Filette who set her off
- 101: Slanting above his forehead like a boding wing
- 102: Pauline did her best for me that is to say
- 103: Struck faint sparkles from my stagnant surfaces
- 104: I told Sarah all about Helmeth Garrett
- 105: Sarah to begin rehearsals for The Futurist
- 106: And then after an interval Effie
- 107: It was Almira Jewett who brought me face to face with it
- 108: Had not impinged on the consciousness of Taylorville
- 109: Mother hadn't wanted Forester to marry Lily Jastrow
- 110: Jastrow fanned herself with her damp handkerchief
- 111: I went to call on Miss Filette
- 112: She introduced me to Leon Griffin
- 113: Eversley never makes a mistake
- 114: Greater than any mystery of creative art to me
- 115: Pauline was shocked at the indelicacy
- 116: By Leon Griffin tapping at the door to know how I did
- 117: Griffin was getting up a new act for himself
- 118: I responded with an invitation to The Futurist
- 119: I talked it over with Griffin that evening
- 120: Sarah says there doesn't have to be anybody
- 121: That's what Cecelia couldn't understand
- 122: If Cecelia hadn't already arrived
- 123: In the silence I could feel Cecelia dropping into the pit
- 124: Jerry asked me to visit her in his absence
- 125: It would freshen you up a whole lot
- 126: It was about you and Miss Filette
- 127: I bought meat and vegetables and invited Griff to dinner
- 128: But I was neither angry nor insulted
- 129: I refused to see Griffin at all that evening
- 130: To morrow I would see Eversley
- 131: Eversley is not in this morning
- 132: And besides the assurance of Mark Eversley
- 133: Saying that Polatkin would come up the next moment
- 134: Eversley thinks you could study a while with Mrs
- 135: But if I could find me a dancer
- 136: I had worked out my obligation to Polatkin
- 137: Pouring myself out until Sarah
- 138: Or than Jerry could his sentimentalized
- 139: Mineola had advanced ideas as to the relation of the sexes
- 140: We saw Jerry come in with the dancer
- 141: Shane at the outer rim of English exclusiveness
- 142: Franklin Shane mumbling the phrases of introduction
- 143: The moment the door of the carriage was shut
- 144: What'll Flora Haines think of you
- 145: It was about a year before I saw you that time in Chicago
- 146: You'll have to take a few tucks in me
- 147: Helmeth held out his hand to the boy
- 148: Borne up by my mood and the beauty of the production
- 149: We would have to live in Mexico
- 150: It made a whirling chaos of the murk
- 151: But Helmeth had looked on the movement of history
- 152: I was remade every pulse and fibre of me
- 153: Helmeth that means leaving me
- 154: Presently Helmeth began to introduce me
- 155: Harwood bought some for his wife
- 156: In November I was to meet Helmeth Garrett in New York
- 157: I was anxious to have Helmeth find me when he came
- 158: That Sarah was floating in air
- 159: I wondered whether his real name were Lawrence or Griffin
- 160: I believed about their marriage
- 161: And the mere circumstance of my being alone and in a hotel
- 162: A royal carpet for Helmeth Garrett to walk on
- 163: I could have acted what swept through me then
- 164: That checked and harassed Helmeth
- 165: Jerry was writing me a new play
- 166: For Effie is absolutely contemporaneous
- 167: I came ashore with the quarantine officers
- 168: Why does He play tricks on a man like that
- 169: Garrett who would by that time
- 170: We shall have all day Sunday together
- 171: I'm jealous of every minute you spend away from me
- 172: And for me the woman has been swamped in the genius
- 173: And if you couldn't get that from Dante
- 174: At least involved us in coil upon coil of emotion
- 175: You wouldn't want that in Chicago
- 176: I meant of course to see Pauline
- 177: Pauline had been in her girlhood
- 178: Is that the only thing your imagination takes offence at
- 179: That I thought I had chosen it for myself too
- 180: That I had lost the inestimable preciousness of myself
- 181: To think of Helmeth without bitterness
- 182: If I had married Helmeth Garrett
- 183: Of the Hudson made a stir like the hurrying pulse
- 184: And Effie looks to see him governor
- 185: All the paths that lead to the Shining Destiny
- 186: What would Tottie Lockwood say or is it Dottie
